I Bought a Ticket to the End of the Rainbow

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.
-- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7_______________________Last night me and my new roomie had a sudden urge to re-watch A Walk to Remember. I'm sure almost everyone has seen either half of this movie and found it boring while the other half has seen it a million times and continue to cry their eyes out. Well I have seen his movie three times, and I can't seem to figure out why I haven't shed a tear; in the words of my friend, who's in the words of Mr. Kanye West, "How could you be so heartless?". I love this movie and I love all the soundtracks to this movie, but I simply find this movie a little too perfect? I mean, how can some guy be so repectful and sweet at the same time before even realizing the girl has cancer? Well if you ever find someone like this guy, I'm still single ; )

I believe every girl longs for a Jonathan Foreman in the movie. He's good looking, a badass, sweet, romantic, drives (even though a crappy car), a gentleman, AND he bought her something before they even got into a relationship!!! (That part almost killed me).

What is the theory behind why girls like bad guys anyway?

So I came accross this article that talks about why girls want a good guy, but loves the bad ones. I really love guys that are very "grab-and-go". To me, they seem a lot more easy-going. Of course, I like my boyfriend to be presentable, but there are days where I would just want to walk out with sweat pants and a tank top on as well and still hope to look good. Grab-and-go guys are seemingly more confident in themselves which is so attractive. The bad guys are always spontaneous and have a mind of their own. I used to talk to a guy ("the one that got away"), and he was extremely attractive in this sense. For example, he would ditch his guy friends to come hang out with me, although I said I didn't wnat to hang out, five minutes later, he would call me and tell me to come outside. Till this day, I continue to wonder if he was the one I'm looking for. Back to my point, bad guys have a mind of their own so they are decisive, have a big ego, and are not easily convinced; better yet influenced by gossip or rumours. I used to date a good guy, whenever we argued, he would just apologize and let me step all over him. His reasoning was "I don't wnat you to be upset, because then it makes me upset", but what he would never understand was, the more he didn't fight back, the more upset I became because he began to look incompetent and feminine; am I wearing the pants or are you?
I also love outspoken guys, because they are seemingly the type of guy that would stick up for you and support you, plus, I love an honest opinion. Although bad guys are more likely to be playing mind games, but their mind games are so subtle that they give the girl the thrill of the chase. Deep down inside I know bad boys never stay for long, they play the game and then run because they search for excitement, oh yeah, the excitement that we both equally longed for at some point.

@ Wetbar, Jul 23/ 10'

So yesterday I was watching some random Chinese show on my computer. I have always looked at, refered to, or spoken of relationships as a game, but this one line that came from the ex boyfriend to the ex girlfriend woke me up; "YOU ARE ALWAYS SCARED OF LOSING TO ME, BUT WHAT ABOUT LOSING ME?!". It was like a slap on the face... Since when did I become like this? LOVE IS NOT A GAME!!! I have reasons to believe that my exs have made me so bitter over the years, that I forgot how it is to genuinely love someone and be less shallow than what I am today. I believe it is also safe to say that reality makes everyone shallow. As we reach the age of marriage (or looking forward to it), we have an imprinted image that we have to find the "right one". What is "the right one"? Well that, you need to ask yourself. My right one is someone that is charming, not necessarily "good looking or hot", but they have to be able to make me smile and have an equal understanding of the things I do for him while I am able to appreciate the things he does for me. He has to be willing to spend time with me, even when he has no time! I love guys that MAKE time for me simply because they care. They should be drug free, but I don't mind if they are smokers or drinkers. In fact, I find smoker guys extremely attractive ; ). They need not be rich, but they should be able to support themselves and me... Every once in a while. I mean, I am able to support myself, but when we go out to eat or watch movies on a regular basis, I would hope that he is able to treat me. He does not need to be a freak of name brands nor make conspicuous consumptions, because that's my job! But they should have a reasonable fashion sense, or accept suggestions. They don't need to drive any upper class european sports car, but they should drive something better than a VW Golf OR something that is better than a "shitbox"; and of course, POWER WINDOWS PLEASE! The guy does not need to come from a wealthy, educated, or perfect family, but he should still be in-touch with his family and have respect for elders. The guy should be able to be himself when he is around me, not afraid to be funny, nerdy, or weird, but... not too weird. This guy should have good intentions, morals, manners, and most of all, respect for others, especially me! They should be able to afford flowers on Valentines day and gifts for Christmas. Even if gifts are not affordable, they should be able to plan or create something pleasing, memorable, or romantic for the occasion. I love guys that are sweet and corny, I am truly a die hard romantic!